English to Chinese Social Sciences Government / Politics

On his relationship with Monica Lewinsky:
I think a lot of it was I had been for a period of years back to living my parallel lives with a vengeance, dealing with the Ken Starr thing. Then I lost the Congress in '94 because I tried to jam too much change down the system at one time, and Gingrich was a better politician than I was in '94. His major contribution to American political history was the proof that you could consistently nationalize midterm elections. And it's a lesson that any Democrat or Republican now ignores at their peril.
But I got beat. So we'd fixed the economy, we'd done NAFTA, we'd done the crime bill, and instead of me paying for it, all of these brave members of Congress that voted to do something about the deficit and to take on the N.R.A and who tried to do something about health care, they paid. I just felt terrible about that. And here we were at the beginning of this government shutdown.
是不是与instead of me paying for it有关？两个pay的意思一样吗？